After all the soul searching about changing careers and industries I ended up with a full-time position in the one I was aiming for in the first place. I got a promotion at one of the two part time jobs I had for the past year and I'm now in a full-time position, with job security and a retirement plan, in theatre. I love it. I love the job. I love the people. I am really, really lucky. I don't know how much longer I could take the schedule and not feeling like I really belonged anywhere.
This doesn't mean my dream of a bookstore is over. It means it's a longer term goal than before. After all the conversations I was having with banking type people, the economy taking a second nosedive into a shallow pool, and Borders closing my business plan- as solid as it is- isn't going to find support. I need more assets to put up against a bank loan. And not just any asset. I need a house. That's a long time coming as is. Though Borders closing opens opportunities for smaller businesses- such as mine- bankers are looking at the industry as a whole, not that Borders had a terrible modern business model and CEOs who didn't know anything about the industry, and saying- the book business is not a good investment. And when I walk in starry eyed and eager with no collateral, I'm not what they're looking for. Yet.
For now, please enjoy my new motivational speaker.